Pleased …

With total release She smiled from within … At the final thrusts of his arrival She relaxed her mind Looked in his eyes to find … The secret to her survival Once again on a level far more than one could understand She had taken it all to the root of her soul She had [...]

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And she was … *random thoughts on T.A.P*

And she was … One of the greatest spirits I’ve ever encountered Not knowing her power She … allowed herself to sometimes be misused … mishandled … But she always … “bounced” back And she was … My friend … My enemy … My voice of reason … My illogical conscious … And she was [...]

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Anew

I like painting pictures with my words … I like to speak from the depth of my soul spilling feelings until the story is told … I dig that shit – I like feeling the energy When I give you me … and its all about me … telling you … about me … Wit’ [...]

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My Soul’s Been Tossed

  You’ve turned your back on me You no longer see who I am Because I am no longer who you THOUGHT You saw … My affliction has totally fucked with your addiction To me So you run Cause God forbid I not be what you see In your mind This parting was an inevitability [...]

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Just My Imagination

  You use to inspire me … You use to have my back and had a knack for taking me with you … wherever you went In my mind you could do no wrong … You use to move me … You made me feel safe I was able to say what I wanted when [...]

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My Truth pt.1

    I think that when you see the whole truth and nothing but the truth You will find that I am not FLAW proof I’m guessing … That when I give of me there will be a search for reciprocity and it just wont be found From the great “I am” to the  “you [...]

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You See?

Hey now!  … Look at us! We are strong Play long Love hard … Even when done wrong … Look at us! We mean well … Walk through hell … and back And still stand … Ha … You see we? We doubt … but still trust … get shifted pushed … and pulled … [...]

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Ur Love 4 Me (Admission of Defeat)

  Since inception you’ve lived in deception Unable to handle the truth I love you always … And I’ll be there the days when it seems none will stand for you But ur love 4 me is … covert With discomfort so overt I just say … thats how you are. I’ve been warned about [...]

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Silence

Don’t talk to me … Don’t ask me how I’m doing When we both know you dont care Don’t ask me why I decided to leave When you didnt talk to me when I was there Don’t ask me whats new in my life Just so you can offer the same from yours I’ll be [...]

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Inconsequential

The unimportant feelings of feeling unimportant Hard to overcome … but so real Allowing another to take away your tools … your ability to deal with the next one It’s unimportant It’s something that can be waived away … temporarily But like night follows day … it returns once again At the foundation the need [...]

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Resolution

  I decided that I dont want to do this … I decided that I’m not dealin with this overwhelming feeling of … not right. Reaching out to a friend just hoping they extend – just one half the givva damn that I have for them – and maybe … they’ll feel me and – [...]

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Breathe

  I just need to breathe Not just ya average everyday breaths But breathe … Slow Deliberate Calculated breaths Not the ones that soon come After a long hard run … But the ones that occur When you feel overworked And things are finally taking shape I’m talkin breaths that are so intense that … [...]

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Consistent

We knew when he graced US with his presence SHE would fall hard. She nervous … we fight. We knew when he spoke her ears would fall in love. She try … we fight She says he’s there for her friend to her with the benefit of being a sometime lover to her … She [...]

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I Shine

Because the light that I carry Sometimes gets to heavy … I am scared Because when my light goes dim I am too proud to “plug in” I am afraid I fear that … when this test run is done And I get my true light I just might … Outshine others OR Not be [...]

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Essential Warfare

  I am not a fighter … I am just one woman wanting to continue to control what I think to be mine – But I don’t fight It’s natural … its embedded within me … NOT to let be … control taken by he SO … laying beneath him … bucking turning twisting pushing [...]

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Judgment

Back turnin’ Eyebrow raisin’ Mind closin’ Eye rollin’ Tongue waggin’ Finger Pointin’ Opinion givin’ Life condemnin’ Freedom takin’ Problem makin’ Support breakin’ Concern fakin’ Life changin … … but we still cool though. ~Intuition 3.2011~

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Retrospect

  I will … not for the life of me Ever understand What could make a man Raise his hand … To his woman I watched as he’d speak She would grow ever so meek And sort of shy away … As he asked … stern She did confirm She would hear everything he’d say [...]

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Settle

  There are the ones who say they love me … But I can’t hear what they say They’re just hypnotized by the rhythm of my sway … How ‘bout those who say they need me … Please … make me understand They’re just lackin for themselves … and need a feeding hand Then there [...]

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Lost and Found (working)

I lose my mind for this Lose time for this I can’t sleep from the thoughts of this Lost “friends” cause of the truth  of this I Lose myself in this Lose fear through this Let go of self doubt with this Leave confusion under this I find me ~Intuition 3.2011~

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Con

She couldn’t hide the surprise as she came to realize – He may not respect her as she thought … All the nights they sat and talked he led her to believe she mattered And some of those nights she’d be so flustered … but he still understood her “scattered” When they met she was [...]

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Do You Know Me?

  Like black to light rays – I absorb your sadness Smiles on ya face … sanity for ya madness For you opened wide … ready to receive Beauty from the inside … much more than perceived I am the jewel in the crown the light in the dark the apple in Eden the passion [...]

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Love Looks Good In Black

Love looks good in black … Strong holding Attention commanding Respect demanding Just because IT IS Love looks good in black Kings protecting Queens Regal as it was meant to be Blessed with ancestors dreams It is our BIRTHRIGHT Love looks good in black Sister to sister Brother to brother Father to daughter Son to [...]

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Burns

My mind slipped – and tripped Over itself to get to you Played the game – and got lost in the words That you let drip so generously from your lips Like hot sugar – Numb with lust – and eager to trust I allowed you to take the reign -inflict your pain And do [...]

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Ebb and Flo

I tried to stay away from it – but in the distance I could see I even tried to run from it – but it continued chasing me I turn for it to embrace me Leaving all that I know as “safe” Trying to find … in my mind Comfort in cluttered space The tide [...]

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Somethin

  I AM … HE IS … WE ARE … THE SAME BUT DIFFERENT ALL IN ONE NEVER ENDING … CONTINUATION OF SOULS WHICH FEED OFF OF EACH OTHER NEEDING BUT NOT IN NEED WANTING BUT PATIENT SPIRITS NOT PHYSICALLY DEFINED BUT STILL INTERTWINED I AM HE HE IS I WE BE SOMETHIN’ LIKE PEACE [...]

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Work as Intuition XVII

The Sadness that is I There are times when the peace that we show has to be tested … The burdens that strengthen us … have to be rested I wasn’t looking for anything … in fact I was perfectly content just being … I, Myself and Me Only giving what I felt was necessary [...]

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Work as Intuition XVI

Time Time Yesterday. I dreamed I died … a crash so violent – I felt the cars collide. As I lay there in my … “half wake, half dead state” Thoughts of you drifted through my head of all the things I never said – Like The story I mentally wrote of us … with [...]

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Work as Intuition XV

But They Think They Know You I sit idley by in “review” mode Watching as the story unfolds Wishing that I could be as “effected – yet not Like you say you are Yet something doesn’t allow me to step back that far. I’m knowing and loving the man that’s within. But sometimes it’s hard [...]

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Work as Intuition XIV

I Am Here When you saw me … you had to know me You had to know who I was then … You wanted to get to the essence of me See through to the real me But … that was back when Back when I was content to stand alone And I still can [...]

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Work as Intuition XIII

Forgive Me … You told me sometimes you not feelin me Not feelin us, they’re one and the same You basically told me my man aint happy And I’m willing to take the blame You said you feel like you’re just a friend Like you’re my buddy, my boy, my ace Can you imagine the [...]

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Work as Intuition XII

The Dream Every woman has a dream of a perfect man Embedded deep in her mind The perfect walk, the perfect talk His character she’s even designed I think over and over … it’s always on my mind What do I want in an other half? Cause what’s sexy to most.. don’t work for me [...]

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~In Peace~

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